What to do.... What to say?

I know that there were a lot of changes happen after it happen. On the very first day at school you look and stare at me differently. When i talk to you, you completely ignore me. I also didn't wish for it to happen. If possible i don't want it to happen at all but still it happen and there is nothing i can do about it. I tried to prevent it but it is just not enough. I know what i did about back-stabbing is wrong. Is just that going head on with him is very hard in addition to his raging anger that could come anytime under certain topics. What had happen already happen and i cant turn the clock back. All i can do is just let it be a lesson to all of us in the future. I even try to bring you in to prevent it but i don't want to trouble you and i am afraid that he may dislike it.

On the very last minute only i know that it happen. I was hoping and praying that it would never happen and on that day it seems that my pray work but later i realised that i was wrong. After that incident i know that you will have a lot of disagreement and question u want to ask so plan to do an explanation so you will be more clear. You answer no need to, i am fine. I know that deep down inside you want to so much "How could you do this to him?" Now when you see me, you don't even dare to look at me nor greet me. I don't blame you considering what you assume the thinks that i have done is very wrong. I know that you now don't treat me as a friend anymore and you also don't treat me as your ____ anymore but i still treat you as a friend and my ____ Loosing a friend is very hard. Having a friend is better than a enemy. I never have a person who hate me or fell so disappointed towards me before.

Well i guess that there is always a first for everything. How our relationship is going to turn up only time can tell. I serious want to explain to you so that you can completely understand and not assume. You just need to give me the opportunity to do so. If you think that i am that kind of a person i have nothing to say.....

So..... What to do? ...... What to say?