I have been M.I.A lately cause i was too lazy too blog. It is not have any followers in the blog. I don't think people even read this blog. Anyway recently a lot happen in my life. Not happy and lively events. Through the years i age from a child to now what I am today, i realised that i have more unhappy memories to happy and enjoyable moments and memories. I dont know why but maybe cause I am unlucky to be born on this era. Other than having a good time with friends, there aren't much happy moments for me to smile upon.
This year, there are more down than ups in my life. I actually feel very down this year. Lots of unhappy events happen and as i am writing this i haven't fully recovered from it yet. However i will try to get back to my usually self. I guess things are some of the fragments you will encounter growing up but it is just too much for me. Everything comes in so quick, fast and not to mention a lot at the same time. It is like I got hit by a train. You can imagine i have problem from every aspect of life. From studies, relationships, family, friends, etc. You just name it. Its not a roller coaster ride where there is ups and downs. This is like i am sky diving but without a parachute. I am plunging down fast and hard and with no breaks.
There is also a problem i have that probably make my condition worsts. I like to keep things to myself. I don't really like to tell people or my friends my problems. I will only tell those i really really trust and there are only a handful of them. The reason i act so cause in the past i do share my problems with my other friends just to get it out of me. Having an ear and a person to talk to is nice sometimes. However instead of listening to my problems they make fun of it and make a joke out of it. After that incident i never would like to share my problems out. And for your information i didn't happen once but countless of times d. Even though I tell me problems to the people i trust the most, I am sure they will bored of hearing my problems everytime and will think i am annoying. I understand. You are human too. You also have problems and yours are maybe bigger and worst than mine. Hey... You don't see me complaining. I am sure some of you will think that way. Sometimes i feel that i am not appreciated also. I dont know why but i just feel that way.
It is nice to talk to someone when you are down. When you need an ear to listen to your problems, to lean on a shoulder and cry. This sounds ridiculous right? I am a male for god sake and i am talking like i am a sensitive or cute little girl. Maybe i am a male with lots of complication or to be more simple for people to understand, I am very gay. Either way just want to write something here to let go some of the things i am facing. I doubt that it will feel me better thou. Well better than nothing right.
