Seems like lately i am also stuck in between situations and lines that i don't know how to get out of. Its not like i purposely get myself in situations like this. However this problem keeps getting in my life. If i try to solve either one of the side. The other side will not be very happy with my doings although what i am doing is right. Seems like i am always the middle man and to suffer the aftermath of it the most. When will this stop? You tell me when. So everyday i am fighting with life hopefully to overcome it without hurting anybody or killing anyone feelings. But put it in another way, when there is war there will be bloodshed. When there is bloodshed, there will be people dying. When people die it usually will be someone dearest to him or her and when that happens, that person will have an emotional breakdown due to that incident. So the same thing apply to the situation i am having now, just that nobody is going die just hurt from the inside. That deep scar inside which is it very hard to heal. However people say give it time and any wound can be heal. I really do believe that statement a long time ago but now i start to shift my believes towards that statement. I have been in many situations like that and no matter how small the wound inside is. It seems to never heal although after a long period of time.
Putting that aside, recently i have been trail by a shadow. A big shadow which the name should not be named. By the way i am not talking about Voldermot from the Harry Potter series. Well i will let the readers to figure out (I don't think so people read this blog anymore). Usually u see shadow in the morning and afternoon only which it is cause by the sun. When night falls the shadow disappears into the darkness as it blend in with the dark.However this shadow follows me day and night and i can also see it during the dark. A big distinguish figure which i could never miss out. I have try to tell the shadow to stop pursuing me and to stop trailing me but it never listen. Still following hard trying to strike me like a homing missile. This shadow keep striking back harder and harder every time. I don't like to be mean but if i don't it wont stop. As you can see shadow are a natural phenomena. So i can clearly understand how it feels. However let me warn it. Do not cross the line or you may never from another shadow again and i am very sure of that. Having said that, there are many things a shadow can take shape, doesn't necessary needs to be mine. You can search for others. As i am doing that also but have not been successful enough. I too have been a shadow following this person. This person know about my sightings but i have been a quite one. I am not an aggressive type. So i respect and understands the person decision although i have strike to ask for another chance but i still fall. So with that i can only be a shadow that accompany that person quietly to where ever that person may go as long as my shadow is there to see and to protect it if it is possible. Maybe my actions can win over and soften HER heart..... For now i am just a sitting shadow STUCK.
