My life is not going so well lately. A lot of problems had occur lately. The thing is that the problems i have is maybe because i think too much. Is so hard to balance it life now. Got so many things to do but got so little time. Haiz... life would be so much easier without problems. I am having problems in all corners of life.
People say i think too much until i give problems to myself. But if don't think then how am i going to solve the problem. Yet when i think another problem occurs. I cant just sit back and pretend nothing has happen before cause that is just not me.
Hmm... when i see something i feel like avoiding it, but i don't know what is the reason i do so. I didn't feel like i did something wrong but i just don't know why i have an urge to avoid when i see it. I feel so strange cause it never happen to me before in my life. I also tend to keep my problems to myself, don't know why also....
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
What to do.... What to say?
I know that there were a lot of changes happen after it happen. On the very first day at school you look and stare at me differently. When i talk to you, you completely ignore me. I also didn't wish for it to happen. If possible i don't want it to happen at all but still it happen and there is nothing i can do about it. I tried to prevent it but it is just not enough. I know what i did about back-stabbing is wrong. Is just that going head on with him is very hard in addition to his raging anger that could come anytime under certain topics. What had happen already happen and i cant turn the clock back. All i can do is just let it be a lesson to all of us in the future. I even try to bring you in to prevent it but i don't want to trouble you and i am afraid that he may dislike it.
On the very last minute only i know that it happen. I was hoping and praying that it would never happen and on that day it seems that my pray work but later i realised that i was wrong. After that incident i know that you will have a lot of disagreement and question u want to ask so plan to do an explanation so you will be more clear. You answer no need to, i am fine. I know that deep down inside you want to so much "How could you do this to him?" Now when you see me, you don't even dare to look at me nor greet me. I don't blame you considering what you assume the thinks that i have done is very wrong. I know that you now don't treat me as a friend anymore and you also don't treat me as your ____ anymore but i still treat you as a friend and my ____ Loosing a friend is very hard. Having a friend is better than a enemy. I never have a person who hate me or fell so disappointed towards me before.
Well i guess that there is always a first for everything. How our relationship is going to turn up only time can tell. I serious want to explain to you so that you can completely understand and not assume. You just need to give me the opportunity to do so. If you think that i am that kind of a person i have nothing to say.....
So..... What to do? ...... What to say?
On the very last minute only i know that it happen. I was hoping and praying that it would never happen and on that day it seems that my pray work but later i realised that i was wrong. After that incident i know that you will have a lot of disagreement and question u want to ask so plan to do an explanation so you will be more clear. You answer no need to, i am fine. I know that deep down inside you want to so much "How could you do this to him?" Now when you see me, you don't even dare to look at me nor greet me. I don't blame you considering what you assume the thinks that i have done is very wrong. I know that you now don't treat me as a friend anymore and you also don't treat me as your ____ anymore but i still treat you as a friend and my ____ Loosing a friend is very hard. Having a friend is better than a enemy. I never have a person who hate me or fell so disappointed towards me before.
Well i guess that there is always a first for everything. How our relationship is going to turn up only time can tell. I serious want to explain to you so that you can completely understand and not assume. You just need to give me the opportunity to do so. If you think that i am that kind of a person i have nothing to say.....
So..... What to do? ...... What to say?
Sunday, April 5, 2009
100 thruths
001. Real Name: Chin Chee Meng
002. Nickname(s): Too many. Currently (laughing) XD...
003. Age: 17 years old
004. Horoscope: Aries
005. Male or Female: Male
006. Elementary: Chim Kindergarden
007. Middle School: SK Sri Petaling , SK Taman Bukit Maluri
008. High School: SMK BSD 2
009. College School: See my SPM results first
010. Hair colour: Black
011. Long or Short: Short
012. Loud or Quiet: Depends
013. Sweats or Jeans: Not sure
014. Phone or Camera: Phone with camera
015. Health Freak: I guess so
016. Drink or Smoke: Neither
017.Do you have a crush on someone: Yes
018. Eat or Drink: Both. Live life fullest
019. Piercings: Not planing to have one
020. Tattoos: No way
021. Social or Anti-Social: social la
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: Never.......
024. First relationship: Hmm...
025. First Best Friend: Dont know how to spell his name... XD
026. First Award: 1st in the class when i'm in year 6
027. First Kiss: Havent yet
028. First Pet: Dog
029. First Big Vacation: No passport so i guess it would be at Langkawi
030. First Love at first sight: Nope...
031. First Big Birthday: 1 years old
032. First Surgery: Dont want to have one
033. First sport you joined: Badminton
This or That
034. Orange or Apple juice: Both. Healthy mah
035. Rock or Rap: Neither... pop better
036. Country or Screamo: Country..
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Neither
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Neither
039. Night or Day: Both, must be balance in live ^^
040. Sun or Moon: Both
041. TV or Internet: Together
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation 3
043. Kiss or hug: Hugs..then kiss.. bah
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle
045. Spider or bee: Dont want. Both poisonous
046. Fall or spring: Sprimg
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball: Nither...basketball/badminton
Currently
049. Eating: No
050. Drinking: Ribena
051. Excitement level: 55% i think
052. I’m about to: Thinking of someone....
053. Listening to: Chinese songs
054. Plan for today: To Sleep her
055. Waiting for: SPM to be over....
056. Energy Level: 77% a lot of stress...
057. Thinking of someone: haha..
058. Want kids?: Not now
059. Want to get married?: Not ow also
060. When?: When i am fated to be.
061. How many kids do you want: No idea...see first
062. Any name on the mind: Yeah.... ^^
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Doctor, to give people a new hope of living andto be a better person
064. Careers in mind: Doctor
065. Mellow future or wild: Huh???
066. Something you would never try: Hurt others people feelings
067. When do you want to die: when it's time...
Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: Romantic and funny
070. Shorter or Taller?: Not too short not too tall
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring^^
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Romantic
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Prefer nice arms
074. Sensitive or Loud?: err..not loud nor sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: neither
077. Muscular or normal: normal
078. Kissed a stranger: No
079. Broken a bone: Nah
080. Lost glasses or contacts: nope
081. Ran away from home: no
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: no
083. Killed somebody: no
084. Broken someone’s heart: I think so i did..
085. Had your heart broken: Erm..ya.. sobs
086. Been arrested: no
087. Cried when someone died: No,no one close to me pass away yet
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Ya..
Do you believe in
089. Yourself: Yes
090. Miracles: Yeaps
091. Love at first sight: Not Really
092. Heaven: Ya
093. Santa Claus: Use to
094. Tooth Fairy: No
095. Kiss in the first date: No
096. Angels: Not sure.....
Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: Yes..
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now?: Suppose so...
099. Do you believe in God?: Yup
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.
10 people that i would like to tag.....
01) Bernice
02) Jayanti
03) Eugene
04) Yong tick
05) Chok Dong
06) Travis
07) Fern
08) Derick
09) Meng yee
10) Jen Weng
002. Nickname(s): Too many. Currently (laughing) XD...
003. Age: 17 years old
004. Horoscope: Aries
005. Male or Female: Male
006. Elementary: Chim Kindergarden
007. Middle School: SK Sri Petaling , SK Taman Bukit Maluri
008. High School: SMK BSD 2
009. College School: See my SPM results first
010. Hair colour: Black
011. Long or Short: Short
012. Loud or Quiet: Depends
013. Sweats or Jeans: Not sure
014. Phone or Camera: Phone with camera
015. Health Freak: I guess so
016. Drink or Smoke: Neither
017.Do you have a crush on someone: Yes
018. Eat or Drink: Both. Live life fullest
019. Piercings: Not planing to have one
020. Tattoos: No way
021. Social or Anti-Social: social la
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: Never.......
024. First relationship: Hmm...
025. First Best Friend: Dont know how to spell his name... XD
026. First Award: 1st in the class when i'm in year 6
027. First Kiss: Havent yet
028. First Pet: Dog
029. First Big Vacation: No passport so i guess it would be at Langkawi
030. First Love at first sight: Nope...
031. First Big Birthday: 1 years old
032. First Surgery: Dont want to have one
033. First sport you joined: Badminton
This or That
034. Orange or Apple juice: Both. Healthy mah
035. Rock or Rap: Neither... pop better
036. Country or Screamo: Country..
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Neither
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Neither
039. Night or Day: Both, must be balance in live ^^
040. Sun or Moon: Both
041. TV or Internet: Together
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation 3
043. Kiss or hug: Hugs..then kiss.. bah
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle
045. Spider or bee: Dont want. Both poisonous
046. Fall or spring: Sprimg
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball: Nither...basketball/badminton
Currently
049. Eating: No
050. Drinking: Ribena
051. Excitement level: 55% i think
052. I’m about to: Thinking of someone....
053. Listening to: Chinese songs
054. Plan for today: To Sleep her
055. Waiting for: SPM to be over....
056. Energy Level: 77% a lot of stress...
057. Thinking of someone: haha..
058. Want kids?: Not now
059. Want to get married?: Not ow also
060. When?: When i am fated to be.
061. How many kids do you want: No idea...see first
062. Any name on the mind: Yeah.... ^^
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Doctor, to give people a new hope of living andto be a better person
064. Careers in mind: Doctor
065. Mellow future or wild: Huh???
066. Something you would never try: Hurt others people feelings
067. When do you want to die: when it's time...
Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: Romantic and funny
070. Shorter or Taller?: Not too short not too tall
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring^^
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Romantic
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Prefer nice arms
074. Sensitive or Loud?: err..not loud nor sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: neither
077. Muscular or normal: normal
078. Kissed a stranger: No
079. Broken a bone: Nah
080. Lost glasses or contacts: nope
081. Ran away from home: no
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: no
083. Killed somebody: no
084. Broken someone’s heart: I think so i did..
085. Had your heart broken: Erm..ya.. sobs
086. Been arrested: no
087. Cried when someone died: No,no one close to me pass away yet
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Ya..
Do you believe in
089. Yourself: Yes
090. Miracles: Yeaps
091. Love at first sight: Not Really
092. Heaven: Ya
093. Santa Claus: Use to
094. Tooth Fairy: No
095. Kiss in the first date: No
096. Angels: Not sure.....
Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: Yes..
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now?: Suppose so...
099. Do you believe in God?: Yup
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.
10 people that i would like to tag.....
01) Bernice
02) Jayanti
03) Eugene
04) Yong tick
05) Chok Dong
06) Travis
07) Fern
08) Derick
09) Meng yee
10) Jen Weng
Random......
Hmm.... is been a long time since i blog cause i am really busy and cause i don't know what to write. Anyway the month of April is another busy month. When i got a lot of work to do, i am busy and i got lot of stress but when i am free and got nothing to do i feel bored. Haiz...
Nothing interesting happen in my live. My live is just full of problem waiting for me to solve and to unravel the truth. School was usual. Is just that me and my pals help teacher a lot lately to carry chairs and tables. "Teacher my tau fu fa leh"........ XD. Joking la. Teacher already agree to give the den back to us, so is worth all the hardwork working for him.
Lately i and in a realm of Rubik's cube fantasy. Started playing like last week and i was addicted to it. I have to play everyday to improve myself.... Got competition mah... Heard of one very sad case about it. I don't want to say it here... I just know for myself is good enough. Next week got camp leh, so i will be buzzing like a bee again. Everything i do is like in a rush. So many things to do but so little time. SPM is inching closer and closer...... must prepare liao.
Lastly, i will wait for you.......
Nothing interesting happen in my live. My live is just full of problem waiting for me to solve and to unravel the truth. School was usual. Is just that me and my pals help teacher a lot lately to carry chairs and tables. "Teacher my tau fu fa leh"........ XD. Joking la. Teacher already agree to give the den back to us, so is worth all the hardwork working for him.
Lately i and in a realm of Rubik's cube fantasy. Started playing like last week and i was addicted to it. I have to play everyday to improve myself.... Got competition mah... Heard of one very sad case about it. I don't want to say it here... I just know for myself is good enough. Next week got camp leh, so i will be buzzing like a bee again. Everything i do is like in a rush. So many things to do but so little time. SPM is inching closer and closer...... must prepare liao.
Lastly, i will wait for you.......
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