Well i didn't update my blog for a very time now and i think i should update it. My blog has been pretty dead and it is time u revive it. Today is the last day of Chinese New Year so there will be lots of Boom today to mark the end of it. My life is pretty much the same. Nothing interesting happen. Just the same whole routine everyday. Day after day is the same. Then there is this day which i think i should not read about it. However out of curiosity i went and read it. After reading it, It bring me way back to the past into that time. In that very room itself. Where it happen. ME myself have wish for it not to happen but it did. I never in tented to hurt anyone. All i want is to clear things up but it seems like i have taken a wrong path to resolve it. No matter how many times i say sorry or try to explain. You will never forgive me or try to forget. Dwelling back to the past i see myself as a destroyer. I have destroyed once happiness that took time for her to built with her own hands. It took time to built as well as commitment. As you can say Greek wasn't built in one day as well. Stepping into the room i have simply destroyed or rather erase the happy memories of that person.
As you know now i really felt guilty now. I should just close my eyes and just let time speak itself but i couldn't. I have to do something about it and now look at what i have done. Although, you didn't voice out on me but i know that deep inside you feel disappointed. You have a saying that why do i have friends like this. So this is your true colours. You have finally show your strips. Finally show your true nature. Whatever i say my message just wont go to you. It will be block out by your sorrow and your disappointed. Why you didn't stand up for him. Is he not your friend. Yes indeed he is my friend and i didn't it to help him not to hurt. Instead i end up hurting the both of you. How i wish i can turn back the clock to that hour to prevent this form happening. Maybe things will be better if it didn't happen at all. Yet again it may not be true. What is done have been done. I cannot take back my words and action. I just wish you can forget about it and start a new life fresh form it. I know that our friendship will end because of that. I just wish that this all didn't happen at all and we all just live how life suppose to be. It is me who cause this and now many are feeling the after effects even now. I also know that what ever i say or do can never correct it. I can only now prevent it from happening again.
I am a destroyer.... I have destroyed a person happiness and it will continue to haunt both of us for the past present and the future.
