Confusion.......

I have a lot of question in my mind playing with my taughts. The more i think about it the less i understand the question and answer to the question fade deeper into the abyss. The answer to the question cant be answer even u ask a professor in a university. The question is not a equation where you can get the answer by applying a formula and punching a calculator. The answer to the question i seek is not one but many. So far that is the only part i solve in my quest to solve the questions. I am not ready to share the question to anyone yet as i am not ready and i fear that the worst might come. I fear that the question will spread like a pandemic virus.

I think the only time and time itself can solve my question. I try to share it with someone, but i dare not to voice it out as if my voice box was numb. Everyday i search for a logical reason and explanation to the question but so far is a big zero. Even during sleep i think about it. Why must the question appear now? Why couldn't it appear later or the years before. How am i going to solve it? It is driving me insane just trying to solve it. I try not thinking about it, but is just impossible. My nerves will just generate it over and over again. I even try blocking it for a moment by doing some activities that needed a lot of concentration but it doesn't help much.

Sooner or later i will have to share my question in order to solve it.
For now i just have to let time do its job and i have to choose wisely who to share with.

By the Way......... Happy Valentine's Day to all.